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Waffles saved my lifeIf it weren't for you, I wouldn't be here.Waffles saved my life by SpectrAbyss
You came and talked to me. Just talked.
About basically nothing, really. But it got my mind off it all.
It made me smile, even though I had just been crying.
I didn't even think about taking out that knife again after you left either.
You had only come here because you needed to eat and wanted freakin' waffles.
You could have gotten food from upstairs but the waffles were down here with me.
Thank God for you wanting waffles, because that saved my life last night.
Side EffectsThey're everywhere she goes. There's no escaping them. She's trapped in their hands and has no way to wriggle her way free from their grasp.Side Effects by SpectrAbyss
Everywhere she looks, she believes that they're there. They're going to hurt her. Even if she constantly looks over her shoulders, has someone with her for protection, or tries to make herself believe that they're truly not real, she's still scared. To her, they are there. She can hear them. She can almost feel them. She swears she sees them. They invade her mind and dreams. They are always there. And if she's every really alone, she knows they'll try to kill her. They never fail to attempt an attack. Are they here for the revenge of her making them go away the first time?
What can she do? Why can't she make them go away?
Are these voices here forever? Are the shadows that follow, here to stay? Are the nightmares too?
If she stops taking the source, will they never return? Her only option is impossible.
What can she do? They're everywhere.
StaringStop staring this way. Don't look at me.Staring by SpectrAbyss
Don't you know how rude it is to have your eyes glued to my body? How wretched and uncomfortable I feel when you're burning holes into me? Do you think I don't know what you're thinking? Questioning?
How can you do such a thing if you would hate this done to you?
Just mind your own business. Avert your gaze.
A quick glance doesn't hurt too bad but shooting that look at me is disgusting. It's painful.
I know what you're thinking. Stop it.
I don't want you looking me up and down trying to find a problem or thinking it's all fake.
Just leave me alone. Stop staring already! All of you!
Why do I have to be seen this way? I know as soon as you turn away that you'll be whispering about me. Please just be more respectful.
Don't make me the freak when you're all staring like one yourselves.
CowardIt would be so easy. Too easy.Coward by SpectrAbyss
I'm too sick of it all. All I'd have to do is go down those steps and reach the kitchen.
Two ways are there, almost on a silver platter just for me. It's just the decision between pain and none.
I'm too used to pain, it wouldn't feel that bad. No one could save me that way either. Maybe the other could be back up?
Sure, there are people who would miss me but they would move on with time.
The question is: Can I? I'm so stuck and paralyzed that I couldn't move if I tried.
I couldn't move on like they could. This would be my way to.
It would be one of my few selfish decisions and don't I deserve to be selfish?
Sure, they'll cry but this could set me free. Do they really want me to bound down?
This would set me free. Cure me. Make everything feel better. Can't I have that?
To cut all the problems away, stab them out so hard they could never return. Take a few doses to ensure my departure and I'd be free, right?
I'm such a coward for running away like this. I'
Why I left DA + currently hospitalized.Hi everyone! It's been awhile. This post is a little important so I have a feeling im going to be making it a little long... Also, I'm doing it from my phone. So, there may be weird typos.Why I left DA + currently hospitalized. by oceantan
If you don't wanna read the whole thing here's a basic summary:
I left DA because of Internet hate which brought down my confidence; I got a lot of hate the same day I found out my grandfather died which really made it worse, I planned on coming back the beginning of January but I was hospitalized because of a bowel obstruction and I am still currently in the hospital and plan to come back mid February. Also I feel like shit.
Long version: I guess I'll start... With why I left. It's a really complex reason and I really hope everyone will understand, but I think there might be some people who just won't. And by that I mean, I am aware I have a handfull of followers who might feel neutral about my art rather than full out liking it. Or maybe I'm just talking about the people who don't really like my ar