I had my first day back at school today. I'm still recovering but I'm much better. I've been surviving on my own without a wheelchair so I'm very proud of myself.
I 'thought' I could last the whole day without something going wrong but that didn't happen.
I had to get picked up early and go home. I'm pretty mad about that. I can't eat because I can't seem to keep the food down and I'm having a hard time walking on my own since I'm so exhausted and drained. There's more to it but whatever. You guys don't need to listen to me listing everything wrong with me. Anyway,
I was really hoping that I could at least last my whole first day back. I'm so behind in work that it's scary and how many absences I have is even more scary. And now instead of focusing on getting good grades, I'm supposed to just focus on graduating and not putting stress on myself.
IT'S SO FRUSTRATING!
Now, I decided it would be easier to sum up real quick what happened to me here instead of telling everyone individually.
On Valentine's day I became paralyzed from the waist down for an unknown reason. The cause has still not been found but I am now living at home instead of the hospital. I have slowly regained my abilities over the past few weeks and can now walk, even though it's difficult and painful. I still get cramps in my muscles randomly throughout my legs and stabbing shocks in my knees and the bottoms of my feet. My hips have a hard time moving and my knees sometimes move out of place but at least I can walk, right? There are several other little details like this but aren't that
important. I don't want to waste your time and I'd rather not waste a whole journal complaining.
Even though that is sort of what I'm doing.
I am doing better though and I can at least take care of normal functions by myself and have enough energy to walk a few meters without having to sit down. There is big possibility that this could happen again though.
On another note, my other conditions/diseases are getting worse and have been affecting my normal, daily abilities. Despite that, I have decided that I want to try writing again!
I don't know how often I'll post something but just know that I will be putting things up again.
I can't wait to get my watchers active again and feel that incredible joy of writing once more! I hope that it will boost my mood and make me forget about everything that is going wrong with me.
I really hope that you all are doing well! STAY HEALTHY!
Have a wonderful day/morning/afternoon/evening/night everyone!